Where I'm At Spiritually

Spirituality is a journey, and so I’ll share where I’m at right now.

I say this every time I have a “breakthrough”, but this is another one of my peak moments. The difference this time, is that I finally feel balanced. When beginning any journey of faith, you have no clue what to expect. It’s completely personal to you, and so while you may look for common aspects with others, you’ll have two completely different experiences. I think that’s a really beautiful thing. It’s almost like a warm hug when you have a conversation with someone who is also on their own spiritual journey. You both light up when you realise you’ve gone through a similar thing, but in slightly different fonts. It’s a friend in faith.

I want to touch on walking a spiritual path in the beginning stages. There’s a huge community of other spiritualists, especially with the current platforms we have. I even utilised this myself when I started a page for collective Tarot readings. The main benefit is that you see how others can relate. It reminds you that you are never alone, and that many others are venturing on this path just like you. You may hear a reader say they saw an angel number and so therefore you should look for that same sign. In the fine print, we’ll tell you that you should only take what resonates. Although, when you’re new to this, how do you even know what will resonate? You are only beginning to make friends with your intuition and understand what things will mean for you personally.

I say this to say, I’m in a great place with my own intuition. It took me a while to even fully understand that we will all have different signs, feelings, and communications when it comes to our spirituality. The first time I took this in, was when I kept seeing a specific angel number. I had learnt just before that we can sometimes see repeating signs as a warning. At this point, I wasn’t entirely trusting of my instinct and didn’t clock what it was about. I found out soon after that. I had been warned about mingling with a certain energy. I entertained it anyway, not really thinking too much on it. However, I felt the energy shift and it lingered in my space in the days after the encounter. I had to do a serious cleanse, and even remove a personal belonging that the energy had left behind. The key lesson in this, was to use my discernment. We hear the term thrown around a lot, but it’s because we should be sharp with it.

Thankfully, I used that experience to learn my own instincts. That day allowed me to eventually connect the dots and realise that we’re always connected to our intuition we just never realise it. Now, I can say that I know my intuition. I’m still actively learning when she is guiding me, and the different ways that can show up, but I acknowledge her. It took a lot of “I knew this was going to happen” and “shouldn’t have done that” for me to be where I am now. Without making certain calls, you will never know when your gut means well. I had been accidentally following my intuition without knowing it. Whenever faced with a decision, I always place myself in each scenario and pay attention to how my body responds. I started doing this year’s back because I used to be the worst at making decisions. This allowed me to bypass the thinking aspect, and just feel my way into it. Now, at a good place in my journey, I understand that I was simply just connecting with my intuition and had no clue.

More recently I’ve been connecting bridges. The discernment was a major part, but it also trickled down into the smaller aspects of my journey. For example, now I know what I look like when I’m disconnected. I used to go through phases where I’d feel extremely lost, and I still do from time to time. I know it’s all apart of the journey, but they’ve become less frequent for me as I increased my self-awareness. Before, I wouldn’t even ask for help, or try to find the answer within. I would let myself to be consumed with whatever emotion I allowed to dominate my mind. It could get pretty draining after a while, especially when you’d struggle for weeks and then stumble across your answer in the most obvious yet subtle way. I got tired of waiting for my clarity to be revealed, and started figuring out how I could consciously bring it to the surface. That’s not to say that I rush things, but more so that I understand how I can help myself, even on the timing of Spirit. It’s as if I realised that I can finally trust myself and my faith to support me in the correct ways.

For somebody who could never see the bright side of things, this is really a great lesson. I did have to give myself the patience to understand, but it’s always worth it. I don’t fret over things that I can’t control. As for the things that I can, I just lead with trust. Having actively learnt my intuition, and how to just feel things, has given me so much peace. It reminds me every day that this whole journey is completely fluid. Nothing is meant to be logical, or strictly identified. The beauty in my spirituality is knowing that if it makes sense to me from tip to toe, then it’s for me. If it doesn’t, it’s something I’ll figure out when the time is right. Either way, I continue to travel my spiritual journey with faith, trust, and an inner knowing that everything will be exactly as it’s meant to.